Matt wrote the song “Civil War” about his journey with chronic pain and depression. *LYRICS BELOW* talk about fear and doubt stemming from feeling like his “thoughts can’t navigate this maze.”
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Home sweet home the saying goes
Then why do I feel so alone
Better off than I’ve been in years
But I’m still in tears
It cuts on through like a winter breeze
Taking me down with ease
Clouds my mind in a haze
My thoughts can’t navigate this maze
*It’s eating me up inside
This civil war inside my mind
I don’t know what to do
It’s beating me to submission
Oh this war of attrition
Has brought me to my knees*
A photograph on the windowsill
When we were young and full of cheer
Dressed in red at the game
Man I hope we win
Cuz thats all I was about
Before all this fear and doubt
Swallowed up my head
Suffocating me dead
*Chorus*
I lay on down and close my eyes
But I ain’t getting any sleep tonight
It’s leering down over me
Haunting my dreams
When daylight comes I walk outside
I see the people; I fake a smile
Can’t let them see the devil in me
Contain my thoughts from spilling free
*Chorus*
But I see you
And my mind cools
Yeah that sweet face
Clears my headspace
I’ll give myself to you
Cuz I’m kinda through
With being Me
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